Of questions and doubts

I've always wondered, if you're hurt real bad by someone, what is the justified reaction? Do you shout back at them, fill yourself with hate for them, and wish bad for them so much that you just don't want to do anything with them for good? Or do you tell yourself, forget it, whatever it is, I will love you as I love everyone else. I've been wondering.

Another question I've felt is, why are some people the way they are, one day, they are your best friend, perfect compatriots, participating and listening to everything you do or say, and then the next moment, they're not there anymore. Anything you do or say, just doesn't matter to them. And while your feelings to them of care, good will, wishing them the best remains the same, the only feelings from their side are ignorance, sarcasm, waiting for the opportunity to bite at you, and making you feel bad. It does make you feel bad about yourself, about what happened to all that trust you place in that person. Why was that trust betrayed, where you the only one responsible? Or was it something combined, do people just go out of wavelength with each other like that? Or do they suddenly think they are more important to themselves than to you? I mean why did this happen? Could it have been corrected? And MOST IMPORTANTLY, can you place your trust in someone else again? Are you willing to place your foot out and tread the waters with someone else. And open up to that person. Would you trust them, maybe even blindly to believe anything they say, because of the simple fact that they are your friend and dedicate yourself, fully, mind body and soul to their trust.

And also, would you as a person, keep your thoughts private or public. Would you if you're hurt, keep it to yourself, or go and tell someone else about it. What if your trust in people is so badly mangled that you wouldn't wanna tell anyone but cannot keep it inside as well. How would you handle it. How would you take it.

Berhael

Of friends and timepass

I was lost, Searching for Answers
Many days, And nights of forlorn
Didn't know, the Meaning of Prayers
Had no one, To depend upon

Oh why is it me, just only me
I would sing to myself, in a tone so deathly

Then God sent me, A prophet of glee
An angel on earth, To set my soul free

Cause you are my heart, you are my soul,
You are a person worth yourself in Gold,
If there was a truth, A truth in life,
You're my true friend.

Those words, they would pierce my conscience
All days, and pangs of malice
Many nights, Of no existence
And tears, that were tasteless

It would hurt so bad, and Fill me with hate
And make me wonder, and create so much spate

Then my world changed, beyond my dreams
Through the darkness of hate, I saw your beam

Cause you are my guide, you are my teacher
You are the one, I turn to in danger.
If gratefulness could be paid for, you would be priceless,
You're my only true friend.

True friends for good, we'll share our joys forever
True friends for bad, We'll hold each other together.
True friends in all of life's mysteries
True friends come whatever travesty,
True friends comrades in life
What more in life does one need.

Cause you are my heart, you are my soul
You are a person worth yourself in Gold,
And now I have learnt, a lesson for life,
You're my true friend.

Written by Berhael

Of willows and exposure

New Manager for Indian team, one bowling coach, one batting coach, one fielding coach.
Player X says this, player Y says that, Coach X says this.. Player F is out of form, The team lost to minnows.. End of life as we know it.. Our national Pride is hurt. The Economy is going beserk.
Come on guys! National pride??? Look outside your window and see the slums! Oh wait.. this doesn't sell money, and I'm beginning to sound like Medha Patkar... Oh whatever.

Berhael